I have eaten to help me emotionally recently. A lot.  I can see that it is no use, is extremely temporary as a quick fix but still have done it.  I am finding it very difficult.  The planning that I had started to do has dissapeared.

One piece of great news is that the Polymyalgia does really seem to be disappearing.  I am only on 4m of steroids now which is FANTASTIC!

I have another piece of good news.  My sister and I have actually signed up for the Weymouth one mile swim and I have been swimming in preparation.  I think my niece Amy may be swimming as well which will be great.  We have lots of support coming along so it is something to really aim for. On Tuesday I did thirty lengths and yesterday twenty four.  The twenty four I swum quite intensely so it was a good work out.

Sian and I are also completing a 42km bike ride in May - hopefully Alison (another sister) will join us.  I did my first half hour bike ride of the year on the weekend so that was a start as well.  The wonderful thing was that last year when I rode a bit - to get off my bike I often had to lie it down on the floor and step out.  With the Polymyalgia I could not lift my legs enough.  This week though almost without realising it I just "got off".  I am generally able to move about so much better, run up the stairs, jump down off the work table around Nutkin my boat.

This is starting to make a difference in my life.  I am feeling better generally.  Wow - is there a chink, a glimmer of light that I could make a difference to myself.