Is it Time?

Is it?
This is how I feel about myself.
Rubbish about my weight. Rubbish. A failure. Addicted. I will never succeed.
If food is there that I like I want it. Then.
Grapes
Crisps
Bread and butter
Pretzels

I am trying to figure it out.
Crisps, Pretzels -the tangy flavours, smokey bacon, cheese and onion, flame steak, prawn cocktail.
Is there something in the tangy flavours I crave.

I am all over the place.  I want to feel healthy and good about myself.  I suppose I have made some headway.  I am keeping up the swimming and have rode my bike a little.  It is difficult at the moment as I have workmen arriving at 7.30/8am every morning and I don't want to come back and have a shower with them there in my house alone.  But it is always difficult.  Always something.

One other thing I am keeping up.  I am going to Hawkwood to sculpt and  carve.  I am in the middle of a feather at the moment.  I love it and really enjoy it.  The place, the tranquility, the birds, the people.  I want to use my new studio more and work on my other pieces.

Part finished feather carved from Box wood.

That I am dong the Weymouth swim certainly has given me motivation.  A target to work towards.  Maybe it would be good to have more definite targets.

So:-

I swim for Weymouth target and me

I carve for me

Vicky and I have booked a holiday in South of France in April

I am cycling a little

I garden a little

I am much more aware of what I am eating and why

I have steroids down to 4mm a day

Polymyalgia is still improving :-)

I am slowly making improvements - this is a start but not enough.

I want to:-

Look after myself more

Take time to enjoy the things I crave

Eat well. Eat well. Eat well. Eat well. Eat well. Eat well.

For me.